Little Adults

Henry is 6 today. It’s so strange to look at your kid, your little kid, who was just a baby the other day, and to see the adult that he’ll become. A huge part of me can’t even grasp the concept, but I’m also wildly curious, and can’t stop myself from looking at them to see the future adult. Sometimes they’ll give a look where I can see the glimmer, or sometimes when they’re sleeping I can see it, and I see behind the baby cheeks who they will be at 15…at 24…at 30. With Henry I see it more and more, with Eli mostly when he stares into my face with such tenderness and fierceness that it always stops me cold. In Zuzu I haven’t really caught it yet; she’s still such a baby. Though she does look a lot like my mom, so I can extrapolate forward thusly.

I can’t help myself from trying to imagine who they will be in their future selves, and I also can’t imagine a future where I don’t want to hold them in my lap and chew on them a bit.

Comments (5)

  1. Clog August 19, 2009 at 9:39 am

    Oh Lu, what a lovely post. Happy Birthday Henry.

  2. liz August 20, 2009 at 12:57 pm

    one of the most amazing things i’ve found about being a parent is that despite the many many changes my kids have gone through, they are so essentially the exact same people they were at age two or three… i find it hard to describe, but i can look at my quirky, beautiful, perfectionist (etc) almost-17 year old daughter and still see the three year-old who glared at a cheek-pincher in the grocery store and muttered, “these people are all hyenas.”

    p.s. i am still allowed to nibble on zoe and isaac (sometimes), and they are 16 and 13.

  3. Sarah August 21, 2009 at 11:15 am

    Hopefully, his adult life won’t include much time under bridges 🙂
    Happy Birthday, Henry!

  4. emily August 24, 2009 at 3:30 pm

    so funny liz! time, time, time…yeeps. My sister, evidently, once told a cheek-pincher/knee-bouncer, at age 2, to “stop this nonsense”. at 40, she’s not too far changed. I’m thinking about stuff that wylie says now: how will it forcast to when he’s a grown up? most recently, it was “my samwich has turned eeeviil, mommy.” He’s quoting wallace and gromit, but geez.

  5. Julie August 29, 2009 at 7:44 am

    Liz, that’s good to know, and it’s now totally making me cock my head and squint more at the kids and trying to see how getting naked and drawing on your stomach with a Sharpie will translate to being a productive member of society. Should be interesting.

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